I NEED A HUG!
March 15th, 2007 by cyle-rocksaltI need a hug.. I’m badly needing it.. Please? Just a hug, a hug that will help to ease the pain. JUST A HUG! =(
I need a hug.. I’m badly needing it.. Please? Just a hug, a hug that will help to ease the pain. JUST A HUG! =(
SATURDAY
I had a great time that day. I goof and fool around with some peepz! Tamang-trip lang ako lalo na kay Amie. I sung her a song of Itchyworm’s Akin ka na lang with a lyircs of " huwag kang maniwala dyan, di ka niya mahal talaga ah. Sayang lang ang buhay mo kung mapupunta ka lang sakanya…. Kay Aubrey ka na lang, kay Aubrey na lang.. Iingatan niya ang puso mo, kay Jarred ka na lang, kay Jarred na lang.. Wala ng hihigit pa sa iyo..
" Haha:D kung sinu-sino na lang nililink ko sakanya! Wala magawa eh. Alanganin namang magmukmok ako di ba? Gusto niyo bang mamatay ako sa kalungkutan? Siyempre, hindi. Haha:D ayun. Then, I bummed around with Ate Erna. She’s my favorite seatmate. Swear! I love her! *Mushy* haha:D she’s kind of paranoid coz she’s toot is not blaa blaa blaa her. Hahaha:D then I told her, you’re still young and gorgeous like me! Haha:D tama ba namang magpahanap sa akin. Jaller! I answered back her "enebe, toooooootttt". Hahaha:D So there, we played TicTacToe. Wala magawa at that time eh. Ayun. Basta I have fun with her. I’m gonna miss her coz the sem will end soon
SUNDAY
Nothing much happened, just went at my cousin’s house coz it’s his birthday. I miss that little cousin of mine. Happy Birthday to you! Mua!
MONDAY
Ok. We had practice at Daryl’s crib. It was fun though. Dance ’til you drop! So there. I like the boogie steps! *wake me up before you go go*. Haha:D I like G2 as my partner, we’re having fun dancing. Yey! After practice, we went here sa bahay. Ayun, lamon lang ng lamon! Haha:D we had so much fun! Yey! We have some videos and pics as well. Yey! Great! Want to check it out? Just visit
MY MULTIPLY. so there. Basta we had fun. Ayun. Mua.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RJ
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINZ
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS OSANG
Ghert: Teka, parang kilala ko siya.
Sci: Oh talaga? Ay alam mo ba *distracted by Ghert*
Ghert: Sa Baste ba toh nag-aaral?
Sci: Dati. Bakit?
Ghert: Sabi ko na nga ba eh. I know him. Familiar ang face. What’s his name?
Sci: Ian. *laughs*
Ghert: Haha:D si Christian? Kilala ko nga siya. Classmate ko siya dati. Masscom din toh eh. Gwapo yan ah?
Sci: *smirkin* cute lang. Haha:D gago yan eh!! Hahaha:D asshole!
Ghert: Hindi nga. Gwapo talaga yan kaso nga lang loko-loko. Ang ingay niyan eh.
Sci: Basta gago yan! Haha:D ang liit ng mundo.
Ghert: Oo nga, gago talaga yan. Don’t know if he still remembers me. Pero kilala ko siya.
The End………..
Ang liit ng mundo o sadyang nagkataon lang. Natatawa na lang ako eh!
ok enough for that topic. So there, during Theo time I had a great time again with Mercy. Obviously, I miss her. Haha:D Go St. Mercy! Yeah! ^__^ I had a great time laughing with her and foolin’ around also. I saw Rika do some sketching so I asked her if she could do some sketching of my darn sucky face, so she did. Haha:D look at this:
Awww. it does look cute and great! Yey! It’s an anime one. Haha:D thanks Rika. I appreciated it. I love how you drew the Eyeglass and my hair! Awww. Such a nice one
thanks.
After class, we did some gullivanting at the Science Lab. La lang
then we went at Sto. Domingo to see if there’s a Calamares thinggy but unfortunately, there’s none so we had a walked to Banawe and finally we saw it. Ghert treated us anyway. So there, we decided to go home. Nonsense
wala lang
cge bye! ^__^
Last Friday, I feel like I’ve been missing my friends already. I don’t know, bsta I MISS THEM SO MUCH. Then, I’m glad cos I finished my Essay already on that day! Great! Then our Prof dismissed us early. Bond with friends. Laugh and laugh. Tease everyone. Eat there and then. So there. Great word to describe, "FUN".
Saturday. Owell, I miss Jarred. I’m not kidding. I miss his pangungulit and kaingayan. Lols. I’m glad cos we have PolSci class and I’m able to see Jarred and secret
Haha:D but the sparks already gone. Aww. But then, you can’t blame me if depression comes again but thank God anyway cos He didn’t allow that to affect me. Cool. Our quiz for Biology got suspend. Hehe;p Our prof is not ready for the quiz, it’s super cool. I’m getting bored in our Bio class so I and Ate Erna have some scan on her oldies pics
and have some chitchat over the paper. Haha:D I’ll post the kalokohan some other time. After then, I went to my Mom’s office. We went at Sm then I met up Kate for a while. I gave her some pics that’s taken last last saturday I think. So there, had some talks about Bry (hope he’s fine, I’m worried). Then went home.
Sunday. Nothing much happened. I didn’t went out. My Grandmother visited us and I’m happy cos I miss seeing her
I’m worried cos Bry is sad and I don’t want him to feel what I’m being through right now. Hays! Hope he’s getting okay na. Tsk. I miss lots of people.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YESHA.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLOS.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN.
"You, please stop saying that I’ve changed. Yes probably I do, but just understand it. If you have problem, then do tell me, I’ll help you out but stop including the changes that occurs in me. Huwag mo na rin idamay yung mga kaibigan ko. At lalong huwag mo akong susumbatan! I don’t wanna get mad at you. So please, understand the situation. Huwag ka ng sumabay sa mga iniisip ko! I’m not bragging anything here. And last, I don’t need to explain why I became like this and that because in the first place I don’t have anything to explain to you!
HELLO??
The koreanovela show "It started with a kiss" already finished. Michael and Jeanie obviously lived happily ever after! Awww. I’m gonna miss Michael’s kasungitan and Jeanie’s kakulitan and some stupidity too. Haha:D so there. That’s it.
Today is a JS prom night. Ack! Most of the school (I think) have this program. From my bro’s school, bevs’ sister’s school and other school. I just wanna share it I know it’s a nonsense one. Okay, I’m getting bored here. Owell, I’m darn happy cos we don’t have PolSci class tomorrow, so it means that I can extend my sleeping hours for about 3 hourS? Great. Last night I don’t have enough sleep that’s why I wanted to sleep nah. As in right now. I’m kinda excited for tomorrow cos I will be able to see some of my high school friends. How I wish they’ll wait for me, cos if they don’t….. Wala lang. Haha:D I can’t hate anyone, I don’t know why. I think so much for this. So there.
"Bakit maraming estudyante ang bumabagsak?" Yan ang paksa namin para sa pagsusuring-kaso. Ewan ko kung tama yung pagsasalin ko sa Filipino ng salitang Case Study! Ayun, wala lang. Naaliw nanaman ako sa pagbabasa ng mga blog. Pero hindi ito katulad ng sobrang pagka-aliw ko noon. Siguro pursigido lang ako mahanap at malaman ang mga dapat kong ilagay sa pagsusuring-kaso namin. May mga blog akong napuntahan at karaniwan sa mga iyon ay may entry na pareho ang nilalaman. May isang "graduation speech" kasi na taas-noo ang mga ito. Pati ako napahanga din. Ang talumpati ay para sa mga estudyanteng bumagsak, bumabagsak, at babagsak! Haha:D
Ayun. Natumbok niyo.Iyun na nga ang dahilan.
Madalas, pag ang isang estudyante ay may pangit namarka sa paaralan, lalong-lalo na sa kolehiyo,nakakapanghina ito ng loob. Nandiyan yung tatamarin ka mag-aral, nandyan yung iisipin mo "Ano pa kayang trabaho ang makukuha ko? Call center na naman o clerical? Ba’t kasi ang bobo ko. Kung matalino lang ako, sana, sa Proctor and Gamble ako, o kung saang sikat na kumpanya."
Mas mahirap ang dinadaanan ng mga estudyanteng bumabagsak. Kahit na sabihin mong kasalanan nilang bumabagsak sila, hindi ninyo alam kung ano ang pakiramdam ng ganun. Madaling sabihin na "Kaya mo yan,mag-aral ka lang!" pero alam ba natin talaga ang sinasabi natin?
Kapag ang isang estudyante ay bumabagsak sa unibersidad, nandiyan yung tatawanan niya lang yan. O di kaya naman, ipagmamalaki niya pang "TAKE 5 NAKO!!!" o "Pare, magpi-PhD na ako sa Anmath3/Calculus/etc." Pero hindi alam ng mga isang Summa Cum Laude kung ano ang nasa isip ng isang normal na estudyante sa tuwing matutulog ito at alam niyang pag-gising niya, kailangan niya na namang ulitin ang isang subject na nakuha niya na sa susunod na term.Kahit kailan, hindi naging problema sa "Star Student"na sabihing "Nay, bagsak ako." at hindi kailanman sumagi sa isip nila na "Paano kaya kung sa walang-pangalang kumpanya lang ako makapagtrabaho?" Dahil sigurado sila sa kinabukasan nila.
I’ve been on both sides. Naranasan ko na ring lumagpak, at muntikan na din akong masipa. Naranasan ko na na umulit ng 4 na beses sa iisang subject. Naranasan ko na na masumbatan ng magulang, kapatid at kung sino-sino pang propesor na walang pakialam sa pakiramdam ng estudyante. Naranasan ko nang hindi makatulog ng maraming gabi sa pagiisip kung paano kona naman sasabihin sa magulang ko na may bagsak nanaman ako. Kaya alam ko ang pakiramdam ninyo. Akin ang transcript na ito.
-Christopher P. Barrientos
BS Electronics and Communications EngineeringDepartment of Electrical and Electronics Engineering University of the Philippines, Diliman, Quezon City
Oo nga pala, medyo ok na ako ngayon hindi katulad kahapon. May mga bagay lang na tumatatak na sa isip ko at sa tingin ko makakapekto sa akin. Hindi ko lang alam kung magiging maganda o pangit ang epekto. KUng ano man ang maging epekto, alam kong may dahilan ito. At masasabi kong mabait at sobrang bait ni Papa God, kung hindi dahil sakanya, malamang windang na naman ako at maka-isip nanaman ng mga bagay na pwedeng tapusin ang lahat. Gets? Haha;D Salamat na rin kay Grace na tinawagan ako para lang tanungin kung ano yung tinatanong ko at bakit Ate ang tawag ko sakanya. Dahil sa pagka-wrong send ko ng text message sakanya, naging ok ako. Hindi niya man alam ang nararamdaman kong kalungkutan kagabi pero naging masaya ako dahil sa mga kwentuhan at alaalang aming binbalikan kasama ang mga kaibigan. ^_^ gusto ko na silang makita ulit. At sana makita ko sila sa Sabado. Kumpleto man o hindi, makasama ko lang sila ok na ako! Salamat na rin kay Au na kahit feeling close ako sakanya eh tinulungan niya ako sa pagintindi ng Review Related Literature. Salamat kaibigan ^_____^
" ‘Cause I am hanging in every word you say. Even if you don’t wanna speak tonight, that’s alright, alright with me. "
-Breathing - Lifehouse
LSS lang ako sa kantang ito pati na rin sa lyrics niyang iyan. Ewan ko parang kung may ano sa kantang yan na hindi ko maipaliwanag. Basta parang puno ng burden yung kanta na nakaka-touch na ewan. Basta. Gusto ko ‘toh.
Oh jeezz. It’s Monday again, and it’s the same old song. I think I have this Monday sickness, that if Monday stirkes then the sadness and depression comes. I don’t know why it’s like this. It’s just that I felt like I’m in a chaos right now. Parang everything is not right. There’s something missing. Basta. I just feel na this day won’t be nice to me. Pagka-gising ko pa lang parang buong araw ay hindi magiging maganda. Umalis ako ng bahay na parang may kung ano sa akin na nagpapa-hirap. Siguro dahil na rin yun sa sinabi ni Mami. Apektado lang siguro ako at nakonsensiya na rin. Ayun. Tuloy-tuloy nah. Sad
Madali ako naapektuhan ngayon sa mga bagay na sa tingin ko hindi maganda at sa tingin ko sisira ng mood ko. Ewan ko. Pero iba ako ngayon. Pansin ko din yun.
Minsan napapa-isip ako kung ano ba yung mga maling nagawa ko para may magalit sa akin o ano. Patuloy na umiikot sa utak ko yung mga bagay na nagawa na para sa iba MALI pero para sa akin "hindi naman". Weird pero ewan ko. Siguro mali ako at dine-deny ko lang yun, o siguro hindi ako mali feeling lang ng iba mali ako. Gets mo? Ayun. O baka naman paranoid nanaman ako? Hehe=p Wala lang. Napaisip lang ako bigla.
Kanina sa bus para akong ewan. Wala lang. I’m completely lost and out of my mind. Lumilipad ang isip ko. Feeling ko nga, iniisip ng mga taong nakasabay ko sa bus ang laki ng problema ko eh. Wala lang ulit. Inaatake nanaman siguro ako ng depresyon o ng kalungkutan. Huwag naman sana dahil maraming pwedeng mangyari sa akin pag umatake nanaman. Parang gusto kong pumunta sa mall kanina, na ako lang mag-isa. Routine ko na yun pag ganito ako, pero hindi ko nagawa. Tinamad ako at pagod ako. Halatang hindi ako okay ngayon kahit na pinipilit kong ngumiti, tumawa at magsalita. Kita naman sa mga mata ko eh. Basta may something na basta. Hindi ko magawang magpakasaya ngayon dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na walang dapat ipag-kasaya.
Basta may kulang. Nararamdaman ko yun. Sana Miyerkules na ulit. Para naman sumaya ako kahit papaano. Ang dami kong dapat gawin ngayon at gusto ko na tapusin lahat ng iyon. Essay sa English (lagi na lang), Case Study sa Filipino, Quiz sa Bio at PolSci, Assignment sa Euth, etc. Pero lahat yan hindi ko sure kung magagawa ko talaga o mauumpisahan ko man lang. Bakit? Hindi ako makakapag-isip ng maayos ngayon dahil sa nararamdaman ko! Sumasabay pa ang init ng panahon. Hindi ako naiinis o ano man, malungkot lang ako dahil lunes. Joke
wala lang malungkot lang talaga. May kulang. May kulang.
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at villa.
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SCI ♥ RED
So there, I’m with Bry and Kate today. I lend Kate a cd of Typecast and gave her a picture of Piolo Pascual (haha:D it’s funny though but she admired that actor so much ^_^) as a gift. Lolz. And it looks like she really love it
that’s great. We bonded together. Awww. I miss bonding with them although we’re not complete
but it’s ok. We had fun. We shared lots of stories and most of them are funny ones. Yey! We met at Sto. Domingo Church then we decided to have a walk to Araneta, so we did. We went at 7eleven ‘cos it was Bry’s idea and then he treated us. Great! If it’s not because of our pangungulit, maybe he would not treat us. Swear! Lols. Thanks Bry. That’s why we dear you so much. Oh c’mon. Lols. It’s been a long while since they didn’t see me, they told me that I loss weight. Most of the people who see me everyday had a same comment as they said. I don’t know why I loss weight. Maybe it’s burning of my baby fats. Lols. So there, I had so much fun with them. Weee. We shared lots of chickas. Then after that, we walked Kate to the Terminal then I and Bry decided to go home. So there. That’s it. I’m having fun and so much fun for today because I saw some of my high school friends. And I do really miss them sooooooo much. if they’ll just knew it. That’s it for now. Lots of things to do. Tah-tuh.